When I grow up, I want to be...

I hate it when people ask me what my major is in college and i have to respond "I'm still undecided..." I cant believe I don't know what I want to do with my life. Well, I know what I want to do, theres just SO many chices and I dont know what path to go down.

  I love science, chemistry and biology were my favorite subject in school for as long as i can remember. Could I get a job that relates to these things? I don't know. And what type of schooling would it require? Math is not my strongest subject and i'm afraid i'm not smart enough.

  Art is a newfound interest of mine, digital really, and computer coding, you know, web design, coding layouts. But the competition in this field is so stiff and theres hundreds of people out there WAY better then me... I don't know if I would make it. I don't even know if i'm even any good at it.

  What i really want to do more then anything though, is serve in the military, I want this with a passion, I love my country and it wold give me no greater honor then to defend her. But my dad wont let me. He said the only way he would let me join was if i made into one of the Academies. psh. ME qualifying to attend one of the service Academies!? what?
I tried any way. My desire was that strong. I went through the whole process just to hit a brick wall at 200 mph when I wasn't able to obtain a congressional nomination. 

  So here i am. an 18 year old with aspirations to go to one of the elite service academies and i end up at Pima. With an 'undecided' major. At pima. A community college. :(  Oh Pima...

  Any way, I was sitting at Pima waiting for my CIS 100 class to start, and I met an EMT student (He asked if he could take my blood pressure. I have perfect blood pressure, so he told me. FYI) and I began thinking, EMT! I could be an EMT, its a form of service and its not a desk job. I would really like that i think. So I looked it up in the course catalog, and i felt it was a little too 'doctory' for lack of a better word. keeping air ways open and emergency stuff like that. I think I could do it. I really like the whole EMT description, but... I just don't know yet. 

  Firefighter came to my mind too, that seems a little bit more 'me' I think. but are there girl fire fighters? I don't know. 

  I know i don't want to be a doctor, but EMT seems like a possibility for me. Maybe. I don't know...I feel so lost...

  Who knows where life will take me. I just hope it does take me. I'm still going to apply for the academies next year. I'm not giving up on that until all hope is lost.